“Is this the real life? Is this just fantasy?” – Queen – Bohemian Rhapsody
Have you ever been somewhere and all of the sudden you feel like you are in a dream? Ever feel like your life is a false reality and any minute you will wake up in your real life?
This happens to me a lot and I don’t know if it is the side-effects of my medication or psychosis.
Just the other day, I was driving along, and I looked around and everything seemed so unreal. Everything felt so fake, like it was all happening for my sake. It felt like any minute, someone would make a mistake and this reality would be revealed for what it was.
I feel like Jim Carey in The Truman Show, and that everyone was trying to look like normal people, but they were only there as actors for my benefit. I feel like everybody is watching me to see what I will do next and as soon as I am past, they end the scene and move on to set up for the next one.
Am I making any sense at all?
When I am in public, I always feel like I am being watched. I am constantly on the lookout for cameras recording my every move. Is that guy with the Smart Phone recording me? Is there a camera behind that mirror watching me take a shit?
I am in no way that interesting of a person that everyone should be watching me so closely.
There is probably some name for this condition that I don’t know about. This is not just a case of simple paranoia.
Has anyone ever felt like this besides me?