Why is it when I sit down to write, I all of the sudden experience a huge amount of anxiety?
Don’t get me wrong: I love to write. But every morning I sit down, open Word, and I have that sickening feeling in the pit of my stomach.
It’s not because I can’t think of things to write about. My mind is constantly swirling with ideas that I can use. Sometimes I even have too many ideas and it’s hard to settle on just one.
Sometimes it helps if I go outside, light a cigarette, and do some deep breathing exercises. But I just went out and did it and guess what: the anxiety is still there, mocking me.
The sad thing is, when the anxiety starts, it makes my mind go blank and numb, and I sit here staring at a blank page agonizing about what to write. All the great and clever things I thought to write out just vanish, and I’m left with this terrible feeling of panic.
Why do I feel the need to make this harder than it should be? It’s just writing. Why am I so nervous about putting words on a page?
Does this happen to anyone else? If so, what do you do to combat it?