Today I did three things that usually turn me into a blubbering crazy idiot:
- I drove through rush-hour traffic for hours
- I went to the immigration office
- I went to the mall and just walked around to kill time.
But a weird thing happened: I didn’t freak out at all.
When I woke up this morning, I felt different. I don’t know if it was my new medication, or I was just feeling optimistic. I knew I had a lot to do today, but it didn’t scare me. I was ready to get out there and get shit done.
Sure, I was feeling a lot of anxiety, but I didn’t let it poison my thoughts. Every time I felt the anxiety rise up in me, I just took some deep breaths and continued with what I was doing.
I can’t remember that last time I had this good of a day.
My biggest hope right now is that this positive phase lasts for a while, because I decided that I was going to spend the money and sign up for the copywriting course. I am going to start it tomorrow. I don’t know how long it will take me, but some positive feelings sure would help the process of learning to be more fruitful.
Writing that post about my college days really got me excited to be learning something new again. I hope I can do as good on this course as I did when I was in school. I know I am definitely going to put my best effort into it and get my money’s worth.
I want to feel the joy I feel when I learn something new and am a success at it. I haven’t felt it for so long.
So don’t hate me if my posts from now on are a little more upbeat than usual. I am sure I will have bad days, but I am going to try my best to work through it.
How long has it been since you had a “good” day? Tell me about it in a comment.